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But I Could Have Done Better...

fucked up in muck stuck deep into luckless quagmires. blackhole of the past pulling in a tug-of-war of desires. about to drown in neck-deep mud. the more i struggle, the more i seem to sink. hope is the first to give way as i stopped shouting for help because no one is there to listen to pitiful cries anyway. faith is frayed like a single strand unraveling cloth gradually. love is the last to go like a flickering candle in the dark. strangely, just when the candle was blown by the wind ...i f...

while the rains fall in torrents, i roll over to hug nobody in the dark. the sheets are cold as i embrace my longing to keep me awake and asleep. i fight over covers with no one at all-- the bed is crowded with emptiness. i think i could hear breathing in the dark; so i open my eyes thinking it is you and realize it is only me breathing my life away.

while the rains fall in torrents, i roll over to hug nobody in the dark. the sheets are cold as i embrace my longing to keep me awake and asleep. i fight over covers with no one at all-- the bed is crowded with emptiness. i thought i hear a breathing in the dark, so i opened my eyes thinking it was you and realized it is only me breathing my life away.

they all thought you were at home just waiting. but i got your message the other day- the one that says you will be here for me- and realized you knew where i was and what i was doing. you watched from a distance as i wasted my life away. you gave me time and space knowing perhaps that i had to be far from you to know how precious you really are to me. (if you had watched more closely you would have seen our picture at my bedside table. i look at it every night ...and remember.) please wait f...