I had to read this 4 times to get "I think" the meaning of it. There where so many elements and plots, if you where to say, that the "meaning" of this poem was completely lost to me. You have great imagery and cadance in your writing. Just pick 1 subject for the piece and go for it. I promise it will be amazing!

Longing, sadness, despair .... I love it!

Well spoken, less IS more

I can relate to this, as I do this.