GaelstormIRA's profile

15, June 2006 Cincinnati OH Dear Isabelle, Isabelle, meaning Consecrated of God. Thirteen years, four thousand seven hundred and forty-five days; thirteen summers ago I first met you. Then the first moment I saw you at Joy's wedding, walking down the isle, my heart stopped beating. Though now I wonder if that moment was bittersweet, wondering if it would have been easier not to see you then it is to leave you again. I didn't see tears this time or you running back into Joy's house. This time ...

Waiting Inhale Breathe out Fuck That didn't work Inhale Deeper Deeper Things go away Fuck Breathe out What now I don't remember I can't remember I'm tired now I give up Not allowed to give up Have to be upright Have to pass the muster Fuck Breathe in Now hold Dizzy Exhale Ah not so clear headed Thoughts jumbled Facts blur I'm a loser with no merit What happened to my promise Breathe in Deep this time Hold it Slow now Slowly let it out Slow now Try the thoughts again Maybe it will become clear

Lights fade Your name in the newspaper Simple bank robbery gone wrong 23 years old How the fuck could it take so long to know Why was I so blind Your gone Should never have looked Knew it was too painful Knew it was a mistake Couldn't turn away Lights blink Flicker Awake now Did I dream this No your name is still there in the fineprint 8 yrs since I last saw your smile Should I have said something then Would I have known that was the last time How do I pick up pieces I never knew were broken ...

Why didn't i noticed that look in your eyes I didn't even see the pain I had to close my eyes when you walked out I stare at walls where our pictures use to be I walk the these strange streets at night Wondering what I didn't say Wondering were are you now Are you looking at the same stars I am now I see all the faces that we used to know Wondering who they are to me And now I'm trying to disappear in the black bottle I drink Where are you now And who am I now that your gone I'm playing the b...

I thought time was susposed to heal all pain It hasnt healed a thing The pain is still there Her smile still haunts me It tells me that she never left It was only a dream But then I relize that shes gone Only personal things remain to haunt me Where did she go Why did she have to leave We knew we loved eachother I don't understand I want her back Please god give my angel back Surely you have enough up there Don't be selfish I need her strength I cant raise this innocent life alone I dont unde...