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AGE: 20
LOC: Livonia, MI
GEN: Female
LAST LOGIN: January 15

I am a 17 year old junior in high school. I am the captain of my pom team, the coach of a middle school pom team, and I work a job I have had for over a year as well.

Bad things happen, and sometimes looking back on them hurts, and you need an outlet for the pain you feel. I have found writing to be that tool for me. Suprisingly, Im not a miserable person. If you look at my picture – I am young, goofy, and 95% of the time I have a smile on my face and I am laughing. However, that does not change the pain I have endured and the unforunate circumstances of many of the things in my life. My poetry comes from that side of me, and typically not that happy-go-lucky side. Just a little background about me I guess.

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Dear Mom, Remember that time when you found my notebook And you saw that I wanted to be 50 pounds Dead or alive Remember how you read that I threw up my dinner And that I had been for over a year Without anyone ever noticing Remember how it talked about all the times I have hurt myself By pressing a razor against my body And pulling it until lines of blood were visible Remember how you yelled at me, called me crazy, and claimed I was not your child? Remember how I denied it all, saying it has...

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24 Reviews 3 Comments

You I blame my life on you Even though I try hard not to I dont want to give you any credit for the pain I have felt And yet, you deserve it all You alone have destroyed me You took away a piece of me Such innocence, ripped away Taken, never to have back again When it was supposed to be my choice Who that was given to was in my hands Until your dirty, evil hands got in the way Your hands I still remember them Cold, rough, strong Holding me One hand on my mouth The other undoing my buttons The...

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33 Reviews 1 Comment

there is something deep inside ive been holding in for so long i dont think i can stand to say it because it's all so wrong i dont remember everything yet its all so very clear i still see his sick eyes i can feel him pull me near the tears - they didnt come i stood strong...that was key i just stood in complete silence while he ripped my innocence from me no one would have believed it because who i was i to say that this person people trusted did what he did to me so for years i just kept qu...

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38 Reviews 1 Comment

What am I doing to myself? The constant pain is wearing me out But I will not stop I cannot stop My eyes fill with tears And though they dont wash away the pain They bring me peace I worried for years Since the day he took my life That I would never feel again And I didnt Until this And though it hurts It is feeling It is real It is me

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31 Reviews 0 Comments

unbearable all of this too much... im giving up tonight will be the end of this internal battle between the people i am ive planned this for so long the letter is sealed & ready to slip under their door and it will bring them pain when they find it and they find me my breath gone and my secret life revealed a day, an hour, a minute, two seconds too late...

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