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these words won't fit inside you.

this is me - rejected yet standing

"I don't know if this is the right thing to say it, but I'm going to say it anyway" She spoke between shaking puffs of her cigarette. "What do you mean you can't save yourself? That's just stupid. As wonderful as it is that you could be brave for you child, why the hell couldn't you be brave for yourself?" I just looked at her. "Damnit, Abigail, for crying out loud, still the same shit from high school? You have never had a realistic perception of yourself and that is exactly why you get you...

I was put in a small white room and asked many personal questions regarding my home, my child and Johnny. The report read simply and because I had no bruising to show of and there had been no altercations that specific evening, there was not much to be done. I had completed the first step by making out that report and was instructed how to go about getting a restraining order. A list of local shelters, most of which located in Saint Louis county, were handed to me as well as a list of local c...

Next stop was the bank. I had estimated around six hundred dollars should be in the account for rent and I had every intention on cleaning it out. Most banks put a limit on how much you could withdraw in one day, but leave it to Johnnie to find the one bank in town that didn’t. I had slipped the card out of his wallet after he passed out, as well as the whopping thirty bucks in cash he had left. “It’s my money and I’ll be damned if they keep it from me” he always said. He was always spending ...