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How can You be found? You existence is a paradox in my mind, neither proven or disproven. The stars hang in the heavens; the sun dances along its course, touching the face of life with strings of light and warming security. How? How did these things come into being? UGH! The torment in my mind. O, if only You would show yourself to me. I would praise You with the songs of my heart and the strength of my soul. And yet, partaking in such and act would only devour my conscience with hypocrisy. W...

Later that night, as I sat on the black-leathered couch next to Jon, I found myself looking around at the computer room. It made me laugh. It had only been a week since the room was finally built onto the house. The floors were still bare plywood, chunks of drywall were scattered along the edges of the walls, and the walls hadn’t yet been painted. The smell of construction still lingered in the air. Although the room was barren, we had made it our spot. With two computers side-by-side and a b...

On an average night, I would go through my normal attempts to clear my mind of all of my thoughts, noises, and distractions, falling into a state of sleep that most people never experience during their entire lives. Soon after I had cleared my mind, which takes a while, I would lie and wait for the natural phases of sleep that should occur. The hardest part of my attempts was staying awake long enough to experience these phases, in which I could never accomplish. I would give up and fall asle...