it was a party, a sort of grand reunion for our family. chaos was everywhere and guests were milling about. out of all of it, i noticed that the hired help weren't doing hteir job well. they were spilling drinks, hitting peole and are in this vast general disarray. my mom and i took a few and we went to somewhere quiet, like a kitchen in a house. i have never been to the house before. we told them that they weren't doing their job well and they should because the guests were complaining. all ...

oftentimes, there are things we want to do or want to get into. things we want to get involved in or experience. things that catch our fancy and entice us. and suddenly, we find ourselves yearning for that something and trying our best to get it. but most often than not, there would be reasons or circumstances that would inhibit the full attainment of such a goal. there are things that we have no control over and things we know we just have to bow to. it is really frustrating when that happen...

as we move in that darkened room heavily breathing touching kissing i savor every scent and blinding sensation every caress and temptuous passion i see the desire burning in his eyes and feel the wildfire ablaze within his skin the scorching heat of love and emotion the want and longing fulfilled herein and over and over we drove each other to the bliss of the edge and beyond and with every scream every moan every whimper we mold into one even deeper but alas the morning light filters in and ...

staring blankly at the far wall my face stained with drying streaks my heart throbbing ever so fiercely my breaths deep and shallow, quick and slow i try to calm my rattled nerves and ease the gripping turmoil the numbing, throbbing pain engulfs my being the darkness clouds and there is nothing left "breathe...breathe..." but i refuse to listen and ignore my brain's attempts at infusing reason it tires and goes blank and then nothing and i am overcome with pure emotion slowly i rise from the ...

For years I have been staring through my window Always going near it every second of every morrow And from the corner of my eye I see the mystery That consistently haunts me in my deepest fantasy. A guy of twenty-two or so One of which whose name I never got to know Made me swoon from the first day I saw him here Made me always wish that to me he would someday be near He had these eyes of crystalline sheen And lips that curved into that easy grin A bod that's tanned to utmost perfection And t...

I strolled along the moonlit stretch of sand and sea, Wishing I could be somebody else aside from me. My mind raced with so much more than I can bear, My heart was bursting, at any point it could just tear. Slowly, a warm tear cascaded down my cheek. I minded it not for comfort I dare not seek. Soon more came and fell on the sandy shore, Like the waves that crashed yet seemed to grow some more. I felt the breeze of the midnight sky caress my face. It seemed to come in a slow and steady pace. ...

When I was younger I used to make a blunder I thought there was this certain guy That would always make me sigh He would be my prince charming And he would always see me as dazzling We'll ride his white horse into the night And nothing would be better than our sight As it turned out my illusions are untrue I realized thinking like such is too taboo So I dwelt on the matter for a minute or so Then decided that there's no point in feeling low Now I met this guy and fell for him He is nothing li...

There's this feeling taking over me. It's quite unclear what it ought to be. But it's overwhelming strength empowers my heart; It's transcending beauty, from me shall never part. My being screams out it's confusion and fear But it seems the world is deaf and could not hear. The great tides of emotion eat away my soul And leaves me with nothing more than this false role. I hear the thundering beats of my precious heart And I realize right then that love it longs to impart.

I seek for that I do not know My passions compel me to go Questions plague my weary aimless mind As blindly, my Self I try to find Sacrifice and prayers I bestow Fail to quell the fire in me aglow Pain, denial, nothingness doth seem To bring me farther from my dream Senses deceive as much as letting go Knowledge claim but does not really know Just as worldly treasures kill my soul My lust a poison in a silver bowl Deranged, disgusted, out of hope I saw death my answer as I mope And there it w...

Behold my heart that I am holding wide open. It is broken, bleeding, hurt, taken for granted. Come and read my eyes to see why tears fall often-- They're windows where one can see all I've ever wanted. I have dreamed, loved, and tried but I keep on failing. I have never once succeeded in any effort. But I still keep on dreaming, loving and trying, Though I know that I would still fail, get broken, and hurt. My sorrow, my sadness, my pain, and depression Is losing the man I love and not win hi...