I found a spot on your chest where my head fit perfectly I laid there listening to your beating heart thumping against your chest. I’d never felt so safe before as I held you while you slept In that moment, as your heart rate slowed along with my racing thoughts time ceased to exist in that room, in that bed, there with you. And I realized that when I’m with you something changes inside of me- A fierce calm engulfs I feel a love for life that is so passionate and real I feel a lo...

These stupid lines of poetry spew from my mouth whenever I think of you And let me tell you now I've got pages, and pages about you You're always on my fucking mind. And I almost wish it would stop. Why should I fall alone when it's so much safer to fall together? I just fucking want to be with you And for some reason it's making me angry. I'm so damn tired of things not working out for me. I'm so damn tired of trying, so tired of caring About the people who don't care about me All I wa...

Halographic eyes against black paper skulls and purple colored lillies all covered in snow Showing no mercy to viewers of whatever age Understanding nothing other than the perfectionism performed by a former self, never knowing when to stop.   Schoolbooks carried in hallways so blank pretty pink bow ties covering lies that we call 'promises'. Never has such a beautiful night seemd so cold in an age of true darkness.   These halographic eyes shine in your pool of murky water, your ...

You said you'd call So I'll wait and see This silence will be the death of me my head is spinning with anxiety But the truth just is; I want you.   I have a feeling that my phone won't ring But I'll just wait here patiently I'll pretend it doesn't bother me But we both know It does.   And you're out somewhere on the town And here I sit, stuck and bound I'm consciously filling my room with sound Ignoring how badly I want you   And there's something about the way that you move...

Dear self, I’m writing to you from a prison cell. I truly hope you get this. Would it be unbelievable if I told you missed you? You left so abruptly; I had no chance to even wave goodbye. What happened to the old you? The new me is here, rotting away, waiting to die. The last time I remember you was long ago. Your eyes shone bright and you laughed at yourself. I can’t laugh at myself now. You were so beautiful. Every boy wanted to hold your hand And now I’m old, sunken, grey. I’m nowhere near...

I’ve always wanted to be something that I’ll never be I just want to be outstanding I just want to be wonderful And when I wake up from my drunken stupor I know it’s the closest I’ll ever be to perfect. And in the early morning sunlight After a night of restless sleep I wonder if I can ever be comfortable with the soul inside this body I drink the coffee in front of me, and I wonder What will become of me? I want to make my mark on the world But wanting never seems to get me anywhere I give a...

I’m realizing now You just don’t care You never cared, You’ll never care. And I’m angry now I’m raging inside You just don’t seem To see, what you do to me You’ll never see You just can’t see And you’re too busy fooling yourself To give me a second’s worth of thought You look right through me You look right through me And I’m standing here, doing everything I can But everything has never been good enough for you And I’m always at fault No matter how I try What I do How I say it You’ll never c...

I laid down on the five inch thick plastic lined mattress, wondering how things went so wrong- I had completely hit rock bottom at 16 years old. The grueling day that was about to end replayed over in my head. There were no emotions inside of me anymore. All I could do was think, nod, and move on to the next thought. I was ashamed of myself for letting my young life get so out of my control that I had to strip myself of what little dignity I had left and be placed under constant surveillance....

I puckered my lips and stared at my freshly made up face, ready for the night ahead of me. I was really nervous, but I was good at hiding it. Tonight, I was getting the man of my desire. The man I’d lusted over for over a year now. Tonight was the night that I would seduce him and make him mine for as long as I could have him. Yesterday was my 19th birthday. I had planned this out since the day I met him down at Finnigan’s. I had a dream that wonderful night, and I knew that the night after ...

I am supressed I want to rip a hole through the earth and scream until I can't bare to utter a sound. I want to pound and cry and let it all go... I want to disappear into the depths of the universe. Not existing is better than living. I want to walk on the sun, until I shrivel up. Until there's no evidence of the person I was. I'm so good at remembering the things I wish I'd forget. And no one forgets the things I've said. So I'm trapped in the set of my horrible mouth. Memories hurt me. Wak...