Poetry / To Understand
I can only stand and listen for so long until the world seems small and dark and empty to me. The words no longer carry meaning anymore they are mearly sounds. I listen yet I hear nothing anymore. Who would have thought silence could be so dafening. I look for the wordsif only to break this silence but I find no words worth speaking. No way to express what thoughts speed through my head at a million miles a second. No meaning in them at all anymore just drifting along so quickley and yet slow enough for me to almost reach out and grab one and add it as a piece to the puzzzle i am creating. .
To sit and think like this takes so much energy and I feel so powerless. I have nothing left to give to keep this process going any longer and yet somehow it finds a way to draw the power it needs to pour oh so many more thoughts through me. Ive been sitting for so long now and it has felt like a thousand lifetimes and for some reason I cant help but feel a part of me almost convinced it has been. Some of my thoughts now seem to be taking on the meaning they once lacked only a short time ago.
Could I speak now, could I risk spewing these words in my head outloud for all to hear and take the chance that the meaning I hope so desperately to be carried with them to not be heard or worse yet to not exsist at all and only turn out to be an illusion…like so much meaning usually is. And even if it is just an illusion is the reaction I see myself haaving so bad after all or should I just sit back and let the words flow freely from my mouth slide smothley offf my tongue and escape my lips as easily as the air I expell with each passing breath.
The moments turn to hours and the hours into days…It seems all this thinking has gotton me nowhere as usual and I must find a more constructive use of my time. But I know that wont last and I will soon find myself sitting in the darkness in the silence watching the thoughts travel through my head so quickley and yet so slowly…hoping they will someday form an understandable and acceptable meaning if only for a second….
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Great basis for a stunning poem. Expresses thoughts I’m sure we’ve all had. Great examples of the thinking process, self doubt, self recriminations and expresses the sense of futility accurately. bad points are the mispellings (too many to point each out) and some things could have been expressed better I think.
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