This journal may not have any scientific application whatsoever, but it is a story of how I was able to conquer my own personal sexually depraved demons. Now, I wish to pass this knowledge unto you.
Please note, that it has taken me a long time to conquer this addiction, I’m in my late thirties. Perhaps some people have been able to figure out a solution earlier than I have. But for those of you who are still struggling with their own addiction, this information may be useful.
Now, I’m not going to claim that I was a nymphomaniac (or perhaps I was without realizing it), so I won’t even try to compare my problem with anyone else’s. I know that most of you have genuine [mental and emotional] deficiencies that won’t allow you to quit this way of living. But if you can subscribe to the philosophy of mind over matter, I believe you can attain this goal as well.
This is a simple three step process that will take no time to implement. All it takes is to realize the truth of it, and then you’ve got it.
Before I talk about the first step, I’m going to give you a little background on me. I am a Scorpion male, and a college graduate. We Scorpios are known to be extremely passionate, so in school, I was basically a powderkeg waiting to go off. For my first three years, I was completely celibant, but by my fourth, I made a promise to myself to try and get something going. (Which was a challenge, because not only was I a loser and a nerd, but I was in a lower social class than the rest of the girls.) Long story short, I tried, failed, and wound up being branded a sexual deviant. In attempts to quell my urges, I went on a spree of one night stands, which were destructive, to say the least. I’ll be honest, it wasn’t out of lust so much as it was out of pain and redemption. Gratification never came, because each time was never as good as the one before it. I found myself dreaming about unsavory women, and not able to appreciate “good” women. Which is normal, I believe.
In either case, what I was trying to do was sedate my loneliness by overindulging in a desperate act. To find purpose in my existence, while simultaneously trying to end my own life. But I came to realize that in doing so, I was giving to my oppressors exactly what they wanted; a long and excruciating fate. I didn’t like them enough to give them that pleasure, so I stopped being a man whore, and found my inner peace. Which leads to step 1;
1. Cherish your life.
If you don’t, then you might as well roll over and die. Happiness exists in 98% of our lifetime, it’s up to us to recognize it.
During my escapades, I was of the mind that I was enjoying what I was doing, when all the while, I gradually became less and less interested in the act. Which is a hard thing for a man to admit, for if a man doesn’t have rugged manhood, he’s not a real man. But you see, that’s the thing… A man is a man no matter how he loves. Same thing for a woman. I found myself asking, “Am I really enjoying this?” My mind was always saying “yes”, but my body said otherwise. So I acknowledged what my body was saying to me. My body said, “Yeah brain, I know you’re supposed to know what’s best for us, but look where you’ve gotten us so far. Nowhere. I think you’re about towards the end of this journey, so take a breather, you’ll enjoy it.” Which leads to our next step;
2. If you find yourself getting in the mood, just say, “Maybe later.” Your own lack of interest will take care of the rest.
Remember; whatever legacy a man leaves behind is not influenced by how many mates he’s acquired. Nobody even remembers them.
Ask yourself, “Do I really need it?” If your answer is no, then you’ve figured out the 3rd step;
3. Realize it’s not a necessity.
Of course we don’t need sex, nobody does. It’s a want, not a necessity. If animals don’t need it, why should humans? The only reason we put it on a high pedestal is because certain members of our society (not the brightest ones, mind you) have their own keen interest in it, and have rubbed off on us their twisted sense of priorities.
Not to say that sex doesn’t have it’s advantages. Women use it to their advantage every day without even trying. We give it that much power. The key is to take that power back, and use it wisely. Your new task should be in fulfilling your ultimate goals in life. If sex happens to come along, ask yourself, “Is it worth it?” Then say, “Meh. Been there, done that. I can take it or leave it.”
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