Poetry / The process of Forgetting

I truly enjoyed this poem, it is mostly an in your face, for what it is, face valued poem, but there are moments where i am puzzled at the sincerity of your intention, ie, to be rid of  ’my darling murder’...
I’m sort of unsure as to what the very first line means, how it fits, it fits as far as the words, because you refer a lkine later to music, but the feel is off somehow…i can see the second lien, the third line and the fourth for sure,, har to accept the end of something, music and dreams a constant reminder hindering your ability to forget the lost thing…
then you want to be rid of it entirely, to escape it, you don’t want to listen to the voice of the other with their intentions of seducing you back, you are trying to learn to be accepting of the change, but acceptance doesn’t always, actually it shoukldn’t imply ‘forgetfulness, that is a bit contrary to acceptance, when you accept something for what it is, you aren’t trying to forget it, you recognize it full on and accept it as it is,, so accept seems contrary to both escape and forgetting;
so i like the running the fields of your mind, image is soothing in a manner yet somehow frantic, with the falling all the time, like running from a murderer in a slasher flic, always falling, ..celebrate, you have lost that which u are trying to accept being away from, the feeling is good in losing that thing(person, etc..)...
then there is doubt,, dream? doubting, the both of you…the memories aren’t lost,, there is this mixed messages of losing a memories but simultaneously accepting that memory for what it was and even wanting to escape it, mixsed messaging.. interseting piece…