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I should be working, writing the words to my literary opus, but each time I sit down, intent upon delivering an outpouring, a white screen sporadically decorated with snippets of text taunts me.

My thoughts are repetitive and stagnant. All the beautiful complicated thoughts of youth have shriveled, becoming tiny raisins in my brain. Nothing seems to make sense. The once brilliant promise I was has folded over into itself and is now a lost memory pressed between the pages of a book I have long since discarded. How did this happen? When did I become a secondary character in my own life?

My family and friends praise my work, but I doubt their sincerity. Are they blind? Are they unable to see my lazy fumbling with words for what they truly are—nonsense?

I am not special. I am of average intelligence. Uninspired adjectives such as cute or pretty more accurately describe my appearance than those that stir excitement. I am not overly witty, preferring instead a cheap laugh’s ease and indolence. My insight is none that another cannot discover on their own. I have nothing unique to offer.

I am extraordinarily ordinary.

And, I cannot write this book. I cannot find my voice. How can I create fictional characters with depth when someone lacking her own voice has hijacked their inner monologues?

I am a failure, an imposter, and I am waiting for someone to discover the truth.

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June 20, 2007

SallyDaniels

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SallyDaniels reviewed Version 1 - Read 100%% of the Item

Good line. Secondary chapter. There are many people who fear normalcy and fear average and to touch upon this delicate subject is good. Character depth though. Perhaps you could expand on an exercise you may go through to help your characters find depth. Open us up to your world. Who are your characters, do you make them up, are they real, etc.