Thank you. I wasn’t sure if I’d get anyone who would understand fully. Anyway, the piece is due today. It was only suppose to be 3 pages (that’s about 2 1/2 up there), but after I get some comments back from my professor I will definately work on fleshing it out some more. :-)
Journal, Diary, & Blogging / Lost in Dark Blue and Black
An even shade of dark blue took over the sky where the clouds covered the stars and when there were no more clouds it instantly became black. The color shift intrigued me, so I stood in the cold air staring up even though I hated the feel of Michigan’s winter.
I’d give anything to be anywhere but here, I prayed.
The stress of the day was fading as I walked to Halle Library for study tables.
Just one and a half more hours and then I’m done. Then I can go to sleep…and do it all over again tomorrow.
It wasn’t that I hated crew; it was just that I hated that it took so much energy out of me. Practice in the morning, erging like there was no tomorrow, weight training, trying to balance on a rocker and do a squat at the same time, and going to study tables to make sure I’m not just another dumb athlete. My first day back was a painful one, even long after my body had stopped aching.
I got to the library, told the woman at the front desk my name and sport and made my way to the elevator. There was absolutely no way I’d be able to make it up the stairs to three with my legs feeling exhausted like they were. I got off the elevator at three to find that the tables have been switched. I was used to as soon as you walked in there were tables with a few chairs around them for a group of people. This was normally where I would sit with a few other first year rowers. However, in the place of these group tables were cubicle like desks meant for one serious person to sit and study like she were a real college student. I suppose that’s what the “3rd Floor Quiet Study” signs from the beginning of the semester meant. I never actually went up to the third floor after last semester’s study tables so I didn’t see them coming.
To top off my feeling of loneliness there was no one around. No teammates, just other athletes further onto the floor, probably using the library’s slow computers to get onto Facebook. Not wanting to walk any further I sat down at one of the death cubicles defeated.
I’d give anything to be anywhere but here.
I tried to start on some homework, but my mind went to the night sky outside. No crew, no idiotic, fake relationships with idiotic, fake guys, no health problems, no struggling to find money to pay for college, just a dark blue and black sky. I imagined that it was a pool and I was the only swimmer. Long, elegant strokes took over my body and my mind was blank. I was drifting though the frigid winter air with no care in the world.
I’d give anything to be there.
Nothing mattered anymore. It was just me and my dark blue and black sky. Split down the middle, just like me. It held so much beauty, yet was extremely simple. I guess that’s how I always imagined my life would be and that’s what drew me into that sky. It was as if it was meant for me to look up at the sky that night, just to see the blend of that dark blue and black. Maybe it was a sign. Maybe I was going crazy. Whatever it was I felt lost with nothing to find and that’s where I most desperately wanted to be.
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traceylb reviewed Version 1 -
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I take it you are at The U of Michigan and it sounds like you were or are a Wolverine maybe football. I getting a feeling you are not from the Michigan area as it sounds like you may want to go home. I see from your article that you had a heafty schedule with claasses, training in your sport and then studying in a designated area. You give a lot of feeling and you leave open interpretation. I may be way off on my interpretation, but form your writings, that is the way I see your story. I can also feel how tired you are from your story. It reads through the paragraphs. I would have liked a little more information such as “What is crew?” Also are you in a study area because you are an athelete and it is a requirement? Also is the blue black feel of Michigan because it is winter time?
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badhabits reviewed Version 1 -
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I can definitely relate to seasonal depressions, and that feeling of loneliness that results from being in a “team” environment. This is very strong and autobiographical, but it could be a great opening for a longer story. Perhaps you can flesh it out and make it even longer. Thank you for sharing.
Sparkles reviewed Version 1 -
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Good topic, technical problems
First sentence is run on. Several mis-punctuations and ill-structured sentences. Good start.
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