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funny how technology can be used to torment ones heart. me, internet junkie. sits and waits for your screenname to return from being away. it seems it never will. i think you leave it there to haunt me. to remind me that you are close (cyber sense) but will never be close enough to touch (human sense) i sit here and read your away message... (even though it's a default) i think that kills me more. not knowing why you are away. ...but wait... you have returned! but returned from where? (probab...

sometimes i think i cry because i have this emotional problem that continues to get in the way of living and dealing with life. and sometimes i think i cry because im so tired of not being loved. and the main reason why i cry is because im so scared of being lonely for the rest of my life.

i walk with heavy eyes along the curve of breathing, just enough steps to keep me together. behind me is my future. i walk as i leave it fading in the light. my present is lost in the silence while your shadow haunts my closed eyelids. and some how my past is in my hands leaving me with imprints of lost thoughts and confusing tears. i walk with a heavy heart stumbling over broken pieces of repeating regrets and forbidden phrases. i lose myself in dreams that refuse to let me wake. only to lea...

we are clumsy when we kiss. our lips touch the tips of each others noses. our foreheads bump our flushed cheeks. our fevered tongues eager for each other find themselves stopped by unwilling teeth. we kiss with our eyes closed shut. remembering the rule that its not polite to stare. We have no choice but to smile during those small seconds of shyness as we bow our heads away. we are clumsy when we kiss. our bodies still feel awkward against each other. but that does not keep us from touching ...

we are clumsy when we kiss. our lips touch the tips of each others noses. our foreheads bump our flushed cheeks. our fevered tongues eager for each other find themselves stopped by unwilling teeth. we kiss with our eyes closed shut. remembering the rule that its not polite to stare. We have no choice but to smile during those small seconds of shyness as we bow our heads away. we are clumsy when we kiss. our bodies still feel awkward against each other. but that does not keep us from touching ...