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Starting over with less than We started with. Pieces launched so far, and wide within our soul's. Not one, but many. Holding less than we need to take the smallest of steps, expected from a child. We need to teach Her to walk again, but crawling comes first. We need to teach Her to live again, but breathing comes first. We need to teach Her to love again, but speaking comes first. I want to run, run away like I always did. She won't let me, constraining me with Her soul, attached to mine. The...

Mist coming through an open window the soft breeze brushing skin damp and chilled. Breath soft and warm against the back of my neck, just the tip of your tongue running down my spine. Stopping to brush your lips softly, sweetly, at the base of my spine. Leaning against the window sill, breasts pressed against the cold wet glass, nipples hard and tight against the chill. neck bent, back arched, mouth open with whispers of desire. Your tongue against the back of my knee, sending shock-waves of ...

Where does it come from? For so long now there has been nothing there. Like a wraith, appearing out of thin air. Feeling not a thing, the familiar for so long now. Then it engulfs me. Sorrow, deeper than my heart can hold. Emptiness, further than my eye's can see. Starting at my toes. Rushing up, devouring me whole. Holding my breath, to survive the depth of pain. Feeling my chest tighten against the pressure in vain. Waiting for the phantom to slide back. Back to the nothingness from which i...

Assaulting me like a frigid winters rain, weeping down my spine. Washing warm tears of my now icy cheeks. Feeling it to my toes, in my eyes, my heart, tangled in it with no easy escape. It envelopes me like a lover from a deep cold grave. Small gasps of warmth escape me, like bubbles rising to the surface of a frozen lake. Breaking through in hope of freedom. Fighting brings no slow release, only settles me deeper. In my servitude to eternal numbness.

Put it down on paper, Take some deep breaths, Feel the stress slide away, All your troubles disappear. Bullshit. Who says these things, Someone with no feelings? Wait; perhaps with feelings. for I have none. Bury it all deep inside. Feed on it. Use it. Embrace it. Yes, That works better. It flows in my blood now, It's every breath I take now, My heart is fueled by it now. Watch, As it hurts everything I come near, I touch, I hold dear. Look at the dead flower, I just stopped for a smell. Watc...