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I look at the faces of my friends tired of putting up with me and my problems hell, I wouldn't do it They don't understand why I am hooked dearly to the blade they want me to throw it away like it is trash but it isn't it is a part of my life I promise I will throw it away I do but I sorta break that promise by getting another one they are so easy to get, so easy to use I wish I had the strength to overcome it I look up at their faces some one takes my hand, my left hand so close to my wrist ...

I draw pretty pictures pictures of things no one can explain all alone these pictures say what I can't I want you here beside me I close my eyes and keep drawing on this beautiful canvas each line telling history I open my eyes what a beautiful red river I see I pick up my pen and draw more eyes shining with tears I can't explain alone again If only history didn't repeat itself if only this wasn't every day if this wasn't my life... if I could go back with an eraser and erase all the drawings...

I took your hand and lead you through the dark Alone we wandered just two innocent kids the way your eyes were shining I forgot all my troubles that night I heard them hollering for us to get back to the house the peace was gone I didn't want that moment to end but like that it was gone

The tests we take now mean nothing compared to the great tests of life

I turn around and expect you to be here I'm at one of your old haunts sorry, shouldn't have said that. . . I hope you aren't a ghost being dead is bad enough the music plays. . . Like you used to watch us dance to There's some kids playing basketball like I last saw you oh my God, one of them looks so much like you I almost call out your name I see you everywhere Thoughts of you drift through my head It is a pity you have to die to make such an everlasting impression on people I go to Wal-Mar...