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i love you with a heart as heavy as a boulder with as little pride as possible. i need you with a faith blinder than anything with as much soul as possible. i want you with a flame as hot as a cinder with as much lighter fluid as possible sprayed carelessly on. you light the match and burn me up every time. do me a favor? read my my last rites before you leave this time?

man overboard i think i just lost myself drowning in an ocean of desire i fell off the ship of mediocrity into an oblivion of you no need to throw me a life jacket no need to rescue me i'm content to drift i'm content to go missing and completely disappear in this sea of passion i'm sinking swallowing rose tinted water my lungs are filling up like water balloons ready to burst.

i'm trying to learn to live this life of no regrets but it's hard sometimes like when you stumble across my mind and i clumsily trip every time remembering all the fucked up things i said to make you leave and wishing i could take them back and start over again i wish you'd just forgive me instead of sentencing me to this state of limbo unsure if you'll come back bure sure that i fuck up pretty bad sure that i embarrassed you sure that i upset you sure that i pissed you off i'm sorry i'm stil...

i tremble when i hear your name it's a programmed response put in my head years ago caused by seeing you for the first time and longing desperately ever since now when i hear the name that you carry even when it's not even in reference to you i shiver i shake i turn i burn i learn what it means to fall at someone's feet and beg and plead "just stay with me tonight." "just one night please."

i would imagine that being inside you would feel like death like the final culmination to this long torture of burning for you and those few precious moments before during and after i come inside of you naked and shaking would feel like being welcomed with warm spread open arms into heaven.